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MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! Hope you all have a joyful day with family and friends, wherever you may be.

Writer's Block: Will You Marry Me?

What’s your idea of the perfect proposal?

Having no one around but he and I.

Advent Conspiracy

Christmas is almost here. Our family has yet to put up a tree, or do much of anything to be "ready" for the season. I can't afford to give much this year, and I'm ok with that. My only hope is that my family is together and content to be with one another, and that we would forever learn more to rejoice and live in the gift that has been given to the world. A gift of hope in a world of so much conflict.

I recently saw this video, and love it's message. I know that doing what we can, and the sacrifices we may make, mean so much to those who really need a helping hand.

Top Five part 1

I can't believe it's been over a month since I asked you guys to give me something to write about! I have thought about posting over the weeks, but it seems something always stopped me. Well, not tonight! Not that my posts are all that exciting anyway. So, to answer the first of my two Top Five of Anything questions....

starpushasked me what were the top five things I missed about the US when I was away. It was actually a little difficult to pinpoint five exact things.. but here they are.

1. Food -  Europe has some amazing food, and for the most part, I was most often happy with what I ate, but two things I really missed. MILK, in a gallon jug, and CHEDDAR CHEESE. They of course have milk in Europe, but it is most often bought in boxes, boxes that are stored in closets until they're opened. I am someone who really enjoys a nice cold glass of milk, and a warm box of milk just doesn't cut it. And cheddar cheese? Well, you can find it every now and then, but it's pretty expensive. I must say though that France does indeed have the best cheese.

2. Niece and Nephews - Seven months is a long time to be away from growing children. I don't like to miss my niece and nephews growing up. In the times I have been away, I have someone managed to never get too homesick, and I'm very grateful for that, but I sure loved to see as many new pics of the kids as I could. That certainly helped.  

3. Familiarity
- I think the most difficult thing about this trip was traveling to eight countries in two months. We took in different cultures and languages, one after another and in short time periods, and at times it made me just want to be HOME, surrounded by what's familiar.  I think it's different when you travel just to travel. When you travel for the specific purpose of missions, whatever that entails, It requires more from you emotionally and spiritually, and you've really got to take care of yourself in that regard, otherwise, you could burnout. Overall, I really loved seeing new places and meeting new people, and learning about those places and people, and I wouldn't trade it for anything.

4. Driving - I can't drive stick, so that means I can't drive in Europe, or most any other place in the world. :) I like to drive, listen to music, and take in my surroundings. Was glad to do that again. I know I should learn to drive stick, and I will try to do so AGAIN, and hopefully one day I will be successful at it.

5. Being able to talk to anyone I wanted to - I missed being able to understand those around me, and being able to talk to them if I felt led to. I don't know how many times I would normally just have turned and said something to someone, but couldn't do it, or did, forgetting for a second they couldn't understand.

There were other things I missed. I missed the "American Spirit", whatever that is exactly. It's something that you just know is there, that you notice more in the absence of it. I missed The Food Network, and I may have even missed the cats a little. I missed my parents and siblings, and I missed what was going on back here, in the lives of those I love.

I am glad to say that I am not wishing I was back in Budapest, with my friends there, though I do miss them, and would love to see them again. I'm glad that I am OK with being home this time. Last time, it was different, This time, I'm looking forward to what comes next. In the time being, it has been difficult, for different reasons, but that is life. Always something to work through and overcome. I suppose that's another entry. Look for it in the year 2011. ;) 

Give me something to write about.

This is a meme taken from starpush 

It goes like this: Ask me my Top Five. Top Five of anyting you want to know.

This will give me inspiration for another post, where my answers will be. I love to answer questions. :)

Just sitting here

looking out the window. Always loved the view, even on overcast days. The weather is cool now, and I think it's here to stay, for the next 8 months or so. But, Autumn is beautiful. Looking forward to it.

Still hoping to be able to move to Lynchburg, sooner than later, but also realize that realistically, that may not happen before Spring. Hard to wait that long for the things there, that I don't have here. But, it will be fine.

I'm working at my old job again, and that kind of work has always made me feel happy. Though it can be difficult, I love working with the people.

A lot of exciting stuff coming up in the next couple of months. First, I am planning a trip to a little town an hour outside of Toronto in Oct, and will be there for the Canadian Thanksgiving. Very excited to see my friend, and to see Toronto, and Niagara Falls, and whatever else she thinks I should see.

And then a few days after that, I will be going to a Ray LaMontagne concert! My friend Suzanne bought the tickets for us to go, her treat, and I can't wait. Haven't seen anyone in concert in ages, and it's something I want to try to do more of. Ray is a good place to start.

And I think now is a good place to pause, and get ready to head out. Going to my favorite Mexican restaurant for the first time in eight months. :)


Goodbye Sun

One more day

Tomorrow I will be home.

I'm so excited to see my family, and to stand on my homeland's ground. Still a little strange to be leaving, and I have that butterfly feeling in my stomach, thinking about leaving, and closing this chapter of my life. But this chapter adds to and prepares me for the next.

Life is beautiful. It truly is. And the hand of God, tender, to the overflowing of my heart.


Aug. 15th, 2009

So, my time is almost up in Europe, and I really feel in my heart that I may not return for a long while. Though i love missions, I don't think long term missions overseas will be in my near future. I know it's not all about feelings, but I feel this need to be home, in the states. I want to pursue dreams, and see how all the passions of my heart come together, and work together. There is a quote by Soren Kierkegaard in a book i'm reading that says "Now, with God's help, I shall become myself". I really love that. And becoming "myself" will be a lifelong journey, one I know I have been on since the beginning, but that self, that I long for, can only be found in the person God made me to be.

I'm reading "Reaching for the Invisible God" by Phillip Yancy, and it is about our desire to see God, and understand Him, and the doubts that come when searching for an invisible God that we cannot see, or touch, or whose voice we cannot hear. I have really enjoyed reading it, and have found comfort in reading other people's stories. Though I have heard God's voice in that still small whisper to my spirit, It's in the times of quiet, that remembering His words to me keep my faith alive. His words have been the sweetest words ever spoken to me, bringing with them love, hope and life. I can never forget them, no matter how difficult things may get.

That is why they say, remember.